Wednesday, February 13, 2013

My Back

I hurt my back.
I don't know how.
I don't know when exactly either.
I just know that standing erect is so very painful.
I just know that sitting is more painful than that.
A prone position with my legs bent is the only way I get relief....and it's not much relief trust me.

I have had 4 back surgeries so I am familiar with back issues.
But this feels like something is "out"
If I attempt to stand up straight I am leaning.
If I go with the lean one foot isn't completely on the floor.
So something is amiss.

The pain is oh so much fun.
I can't sleep. I can't focus on anything but the pain.
I am trying. As I type this I am kneeling.
Maybe I should try prayer while I'm down here.
I am that miserable.

I have classes tonight and I am not sure how I can sit in those horrible wooden school chairs for 3 hrs.
Unless I can be brought in by gurney I am not seeing it happen.
I am so far over my head as it is in class missing one week will send me over the edge.
Wish there was skyping of the class - that would be helpful.
I could lie on my back with the laptop on my chest and watch and learn.
Or watch and being utterly befuddled.

Then again taking another 1/2 percocet may help more and allow me to sleep.
I am not sleeping as one can imagine.

If I were a horse they'd put me down.
I wouldn't fight that right now.

6 comments:

Mike said...

Lower back? Right now I'm sitting with a rolled up towel behind my back. I have towels everywhere I sit. Especially in the car. It fixed my back problems.

Bilbo said...

Sorry about your back issues. Since I have the Neck From Hell, I can sympathize. What's the class you're taking? Maybe you can work something out with the instructor to have it Skyped or FaceTimed or something. Good luck!

Margaret (Peggy or Peg too) said...

Ah Mike if it were only that easy. I always have a pillow on my chair for my lower back. So....

Bill - neck from hell huh? I take photography classes. I just emailed the instructor for my lesson and to see if there were optioins like you suggested. I can't sit in those little wooden chairs tonight. I just can't! And driving is out of the question.

angelcel said...

Oh how I feel for you. Just before Christmas I had back pain very similar to this (from what you describe). The suggestion was that it might be a slipped disc. I do hope you get some relief from it soon.

Margaret (Peggy or Peg too) said...

Angelcel - I have had a few ruptured (slipped discs)discs. Not fun. I am feeling a bit better today but not going to be dancing for awhile. :-) Thx for stopping by. Love the photo CLEAR as well as the small child marching with the older man. Just enjoy your photo's!!! I aspire to be that good one day.

Mom Taxi Julie said...

That sounds so painful! Take more drugs.